Watch The Exhibitionist Files (2002) Free Online

It is May 1st, exactly one year ago Marco and I moved in with eachother our lovely apartment in Bologna. For me it was a strange year. IT took me a long time to warm up to him, to feel at home, to be able to sing in the house or move about as I please. Everyday is just a series of minutes. Sometimes he would go out and I sing songs to myself. At first I would sing about people I left behind, my neuroticism, nothing.... ok wait, let's start again. Rob and Christine were here, actually they just left from a week of staying with us and I realized it takes me a very long time to share my personal space. I have only ever been comfortable with 4 people in my entire life. Marco is the 4th and Chrissy, mommy and Eric were the first 3. Being comfortable alone is one thing. Moving in the space however you please, dancing or singing or being crazy. Breaking me in is like breaking in a wild horse. Poor Marco went through some serious tough times trying to understand what the problem is with his ragazza. Then one day the problem went away and now I can be me. At some point we started making songs and videos together. This is a video of some times alone, some times together, some times I never thought I'd share but then realizing I am an exhibitionist decided I would like to. I would like to turn these moments into a performance art series, where I make a room in a gallery. Picture a small room with mirrors, where I am enclosed and can see myself, and there are people in a larger room ...

• The Exhibitionist Files